How are you? ... Honestly?
So often we try to stay positive, especially in front of others. Most of the time we figure if someone asks, "how are you?" they are just being polite, and even if they inquire further we still hesitate to fully disclose an honest answer maybe changing the subject to the kids or work. If we were to answer honestly however, how many of us would really just say, "fine."?
The other day as I picked up a new prescription the pharmacy tech related that it is one of the top prescribed medications in America! You see I currently take a handful of pills everyday in hopes of just getting by to the next day. If I think about it though, I cannot remember ever being actually healthy .
"I currently take a handful of pills everyday in hopes of just getting by to the next day ."
As a young child I suffered frequent headaches , restless leg syndrome, and insomnia. As a teenager my headaches became migraines that were so overwhelming I even overdosed once and seriously feared I would die from the pain. Next came my period and with it a slew of frustrations as I had pcos and frequent anemia. At some point my health started to further decline. I was so fatigued from the moment I got up, through falling asleep at the wheel, to never feeling rested no matter how much sleep I got. Constant diarrhea I couldn't explain. I had already been suffering memory problems for years but now it was even worse and I would get lost on the way home.
"At some point my health started to further decline. I was so fatigued...falling asleep at the wheel,"
Being a dietetics major in college I decided to again try adjustments to my diet in hopes it would ease my symptoms. I cut back on sugar and dairy, and eliminated gluten. This was my diet for over 5 years. The symptoms were kept at bay but I knew the root cause had not been resolved. I decided to try another approach, and again it seemed to work...for a few years before symptoms started to creep back again.
"I finally started to feel better; not my old self but a new me I could live with."
By the time I had my first child I had already battled my weight for many years, even becoming anorexic bulimic a while, but besides the weight the fatigue had returned and a list of other ailments that led me to feel like my body was giving up on me. With my little boy to live for I made use of my insurance card and visited the gynecologist office prepared with my list of symptoms. She did bloodwork confident with my symptoms to say I have hypothyroidism. After a few failed prescriptions I finally started to feel better; not my old self but a new me I could live with.
As my rollercoaster journey continues I felt like finally opening up and starting to answer how I am. Lately I find it challenging just to lower my body onto the toilet and stay awake while feeding the baby, but I remain positive a new up is on the horizon no matter how far down life may swoop. While I hope all is well with you, whether it is or not feel free to let me know, "how are you? ... honestly?"